Meditation was good, the drunk/high homeless dude who was ranting about "cops not being aloud in 12 step meetings" not so good. I politely informed him that he wasn't in a 12 step meeting, before a staff member from the church escorted him out. But before he escorted him out, the guy told me that I would have to leave. I politely explained to him that I was trying to have the crazy dude removed from our meditation class. He then apologized for assuming that I was one of the crazy homeless people. I was dressed down, and my hair was messed up from having a winter beanie on, but come on. But, yeah, meditation and the dharma talk tonight was excellent.
For most of my life, I haven't been able to see how my
thoughts were affecting my situation. I understood the
concept of changing my perception from negative to
positive, but I didn't quite get how living as if my life
was already the way I wanted it to be, could possibly
have an affect on my life experiences. recently I have been doing some work
on myself internally. When I catch myself feeling upset, distracted, sad,
annoyed, or [insert negative feeling here], I envision myself in the same
situation, only with positive emotions. I close my eyes, and really feel, how it
would feel for the situation to be enjoyable. For example, just this morning, I
was waiting in line for my morning coffee, and I was already running late on
my commute to work. I found myself feeling annoyed that all 3 people
behind the counter were walking back and forth, and not taking orders.
There were only 3 people ahead of me in line, and no one was taking their
orders. I felt frustrated and annoyed, even entitled. When I have found
myself in similar situations in the past, I would get stressed out, tell myself I
was going to be late, and curse in my head at the people behind the counter.
The great thing about the work that I've been doing lately, is that I caught
myself getting frustrated, and in that moment, I was able to close my eyes,
and see myself with the coffee in my hand, I could feel it's warmth, and I
also saw myself arriving on time to work. Within about 20 seconds, I was at
the beginning of the line, and ordering my drink. I made it to work on time,
in spite of getting a late start.
I have never believed in coincidences, or wishful thinking. I have always
known that when I put energy into a project, a relationship, or finding a job,
I will get results. They may not have always been the results I wanted, but
they were the results that were meant to be. I have also known that
everything happens for a reason, and it's how I choose to respond that
makes the difference. I have come to learn that thoughts are brainwaves,
therefore, if I put out negative energy, that is what I will attract, and if I
remain grounded, and focus on the positive, and end result, I may just be
amazed by what my life has in store for me. I have experienced many
synchronicities in the past, but they seemed to be coincidences, so I didn't
really pay attention to them very often, (unless they were a warning sign of
sorts) instead, I would brush them off as no big deal. Today, I choose to see
them as gifts and possibilities.